The Beginning ... My "Why" and a Little About Me.

About Me...

I'm going to start off with a little bit about myself. My name is Kayla and I'm a 29 year old momma of one adorably handsome, extremely crazy 3 year old little man. Over the past few years I have completely let myself go in every way imaginable. I stepped on the scale the other day and it read 225 lbs, the heaviest I have ever been in my entire life, which, honestly, made me completely disgusted with myself... I have struggled with my weight my whole life and since being diagnosed with an under active thyroid that struggle has become harder and harder.

Trying to lose weight with an under active thyroid and all the other issues that came along with it, makes it harder than normal and is a whole other challenge in itself. The last couple of years has been a battle for sure!! Me against my symptoms so to speak! I've been to multiple doctors over the years trying to find the right dosage of medication, and have been trying to deal with all the health and mental health problems that have popped up over the years. I have given up hope of medication fully helping me with my symptoms and realized I need to make a lifestyle change in hopes that that helps.

After I had my little man, I went back to work for a few months, but quickly realized that it was harder than I thought being away from him for so long. So, I made the choice to become a stay at home mom. Its been 2 years since I made that choice and I know that has added to my weight gain. Without the constant movement from being at work, my life has become a lot more sedentary.

Because of my thyroid disease and choice of lifestyle lately, I am constantly exhausted, lethargic, and just left overall feeling blah. I've made some bad health choices lately; resorting to eating more fast food/take out because I'm just too exhausted/lazy to cook, started drinking more pop (an addiction I've had for years, and one of my worst bad habits), and for the worst decision I've made lately that not many people know about was starting smoking again. To all those people that just read that and thought "What the heck was I thinking?" I know,  I know... Worst decision I have made in a long time and biggest regret. For those of you who don't know, I used to be a heavy smoker. I smoked most of my high school years and throughout to my early 20's. I had gotten so bad and dependent on smoking that I would go through a pack a day (disgusting I know). I quit in 2010/2011 and after 4 years made the poor choice to start again.

Starting tomorrow is when I make a change! Time to kick all the nasty habits! I'm doing this not only for myself, but for my little man. Its time to take back my life! So over the next few days/weeks/months bear with me while I kick these habits and continue on my journey to better health. Tomorrow I will be posting my beginning weight and measurements as well as my meal plan and exercise plan. I will be taking before pictures but will not be posting them as I am still too embarrassed by what I have let myself become. Maybe one day when I am happy with my progress i will be brave enough to post it but not just yet.

My realistic goal weight is 150 lbs, but my dream goal is to be able to fit into my pre-pregnancy jeans when I was at the smallest I had ever been. Which was 135 lbs and a size 26 waist. Its funny to think that I used to think I was fat back then and now I look back at pictures and can only wish I looked that good.