Day 1

Day 1...

So today is day one, it's not even 10 am, and I'm already off to a bad start! I woke up, got my little man up, took him to the potty, made him his breakfast, poured myself a cup of cold coffee left over from when the other half went to work early this morning, heated it in the microwave, and sat down to try to wake myself up. A big part of losing weight, and a huge problem I have, is getting enough sleep on a daily basis. Let's just say I've had better nights than last night. Between my insomnia keeping me awake, a certain other half hogging the bed, tossing and turning all night because I just could not get comfortable, and a little man who likes to be up early in the morning; I did not get much sleep last night.

One of my biggest issues when it comes to losing weight is that I don't eat often enough, which is a big issue when you already don't have much of a metabolism thanks to my hypothyroid.  I usually eat 1 or 2 bigger meals throughout the day, instead of 5 - 6 smaller ones. On a normal day it's not until after noon, and hours after I wake before I feel hungry and get to sit down and have a meal for myself. I got distracted watching 'Grease: Live' last night and did not get any of the meal prep I planned on doing done yesterday. No sleep, and no prep makes for a bad morning.

As I am writing this I realized that it's close to 11 am and I have yet to eat so off to make breakfast I go...

This morning I made a 2 egg omelet with sautéed mushrooms, mini red pepper, kale, cheese and some dynamite Flavor God seasoning cooked in coconut oil and half a large banana on the side. Accompanied by 1 liter of water, a cup of turmeric tea with honey, and of course my thyroid medication.

Now I forgot to weigh myself first thing in the morning so my starting weight will be a little off as I took it after I ate. I stepped on the scale at 221.4 lbs. And I will take measurements once I find my fabric tape measure. 

Lunch today was easy and fast as I was busy prepping veggies for the week, so a smoothie it was to share with my little man. 
Smoothie contained 2 cups of mixed greens smoothie mix that includes shredded carrots, red chard, kale, beet greens, and shredded broccoli stalk,  1 1/2 cup of frozen mixed berries, a scoop of chocolate Shakeology, 1/2 cup of almond milk and 1 1/2 cups of water. 

I also made a batch of Oatmeal Banana Applesauce Cookies, using homemade unsweetened applesauce I canned in the summer using apples picked from the 

inlaws tree. They are perfect for a snack, or those mornings where I just don't have energy to make anything. 

Dinner tonight I made the goose some zucchini bites in a mini muffin pan (shredded zucchini,  diced onion, grated cheese, and egg) and for myself I sautéed some shrimp in Chipotle Flavor God seasoning with quinoa and kale. 

The Beginning ... My "Why" and a Little About Me.

About Me...

I'm going to start off with a little bit about myself. My name is Kayla and I'm a 29 year old momma of one adorably handsome, extremely crazy 3 year old little man. Over the past few years I have completely let myself go in every way imaginable. I stepped on the scale the other day and it read 225 lbs, the heaviest I have ever been in my entire life, which, honestly, made me completely disgusted with myself... I have struggled with my weight my whole life and since being diagnosed with an under active thyroid that struggle has become harder and harder.

Trying to lose weight with an under active thyroid and all the other issues that came along with it, makes it harder than normal and is a whole other challenge in itself. The last couple of years has been a battle for sure!! Me against my symptoms so to speak! I've been to multiple doctors over the years trying to find the right dosage of medication, and have been trying to deal with all the health and mental health problems that have popped up over the years. I have given up hope of medication fully helping me with my symptoms and realized I need to make a lifestyle change in hopes that that helps.

After I had my little man, I went back to work for a few months, but quickly realized that it was harder than I thought being away from him for so long. So, I made the choice to become a stay at home mom. Its been 2 years since I made that choice and I know that has added to my weight gain. Without the constant movement from being at work, my life has become a lot more sedentary.

Because of my thyroid disease and choice of lifestyle lately, I am constantly exhausted, lethargic, and just left overall feeling blah. I've made some bad health choices lately; resorting to eating more fast food/take out because I'm just too exhausted/lazy to cook, started drinking more pop (an addiction I've had for years, and one of my worst bad habits), and for the worst decision I've made lately that not many people know about was starting smoking again. To all those people that just read that and thought "What the heck was I thinking?" I know,  I know... Worst decision I have made in a long time and biggest regret. For those of you who don't know, I used to be a heavy smoker. I smoked most of my high school years and throughout to my early 20's. I had gotten so bad and dependent on smoking that I would go through a pack a day (disgusting I know). I quit in 2010/2011 and after 4 years made the poor choice to start again.

Starting tomorrow is when I make a change! Time to kick all the nasty habits! I'm doing this not only for myself, but for my little man. Its time to take back my life! So over the next few days/weeks/months bear with me while I kick these habits and continue on my journey to better health. Tomorrow I will be posting my beginning weight and measurements as well as my meal plan and exercise plan. I will be taking before pictures but will not be posting them as I am still too embarrassed by what I have let myself become. Maybe one day when I am happy with my progress i will be brave enough to post it but not just yet.

My realistic goal weight is 150 lbs, but my dream goal is to be able to fit into my pre-pregnancy jeans when I was at the smallest I had ever been. Which was 135 lbs and a size 26 waist. Its funny to think that I used to think I was fat back then and now I look back at pictures and can only wish I looked that good.